Welcome to my blog. It varies how regular I write posts here. I sustained a 'Traumatic Acquired Brain Injury', and a six month coma from a 'road traffic accident' whilst cycling, in October 2006. I spent the following 4 years (22-26yrs old), in a combination of hospitals and rehabilitation homes. Now, I have been living independently in Surbiton, England since October 2010. This blog begun life in December 2010, as i realised that there are many people worldwide that i want to share experiences with. I know that, as a wheelchair user, I am obviously not as mobile as i wish, so, use the internet to connect to you. I enjoy letting my thoughts represent through type. I type honestly. As numerous readers, as well as email recipients, will understand, I find typing to be very therapeutic. Thank you :)
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Friday, 28 October 2016

Let down

Hehehe, perhaps surprisingly, this post's title has been chosen in relation to yet another harrowing decision by Theresa May (I include her name, because I am apportioning blame)! Following her decision on direct development of British nuclear power, she has continued breaking promises, by choosing to expand Heathrow airport. I can pay no respect, sorry. 

There had been failed arguments against her choice, claiming that different airports deserve expansion. These are also weak, and poor choices. British people must wake-up and realise what is really at stake.

There were too many late reactions of dismay, posted on social-media. 
That is what social-media allows us all to do. Voice opinions. All must be respected.

A map of future traffic in the air...



Too many 'not in my backyard' arguments.
Flight maps may show that your area is clearer, or busier than before. Wake up!!!! 
Bigger problem is that we will break our promise to the rest of world. 
Britain is ignoring the monumentous  Global ’Climate-Change’ agreements, of Paris 2015. If my country withdraws its promise, everyone can withdraw, and Planet Earth will crumble.

Although, i had wrote my notes (all typed above), I then, rapidly received an email from Caroline Lucas, explaining the same problem, clearer...

If the Government is remotely serious about climate change, then it cannot build any new runways. Not Heathrow. Not Gatwick. Nowhere.

Ministers claim that airport expansion is a necessity, but 70 percent of all UK flights are taken by just 15 percent of people. Building a third runway would only benefit a small wealthy elite, leaving the rest of us to pay the price of a worsening air quality crisis and climate breakdown.

This is grossly unfair. But there’s a better idea.

Greens support the growing campaign for a frequent flyer levy. This would be a fairer, greener tax on air travel, so that everyone gets one tax-free flight per year, but those who pollute the most, pay the most.

It would reduce the overall number of flights in the long run while raising money for greener alternatives. Best of all, it means we wouldn’t need to build a new runway at Heathrow. Or anywhere.

We’ve got a year to win these arguments - before MPs get the final vote. I’ve tabled a new parliamentary motion, calling for a frequent flyer levy instead of any new runways. But it needs more support.


Thank you,
Caroline 




So, I was fuelled with anger and scribed another email to my MP, James Berry (Conservative)...

Hello Mr Berry,
I am hurting. I am a Surbiton resident of your RBK constituency. Recent news of Theresa May’s decision on ‘Heathrow development’, is so painful. I could use much more descriptive language, but i must not. Interestingly the majority of the public seem to be concerned about flight paths, and where they live. There is however, a much more globally catastrophic possibility.
The bigger problem is that we will break our promise to the rest of world. 
Britain is ignoring the monumentous  Global ’Climate-Change’ agreements, of Paris 2015. If my country withdraws its promise, everyone can, and Planet Earth will crumble.
I ask you, James Berry, my MP to stand in opposition to her decision, applying pressure on her to reverse this huge choice that she has made.
Thank you

Patrick Goodacre



If you agree with my point of view, I urge you to do the same...
...Please email your MP (email addresses can be found at following link)

Not Heathrow, not Gatwick. 
Nowhere!!

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In other news...
(both Coffee related)!


This afternoon, a bold step for me (not literally, don't get excited)...
I changed my usual coffee bean purchase! Whilst usually I have opted for Colombian, I have now bought Ethiopian. Fruitier and tastier, i think... ... we'll see. 

The above 'change' may be due to my eyes being opened, or 'taste buds wetted' by independent coffee shops! My website has been updated regularly, recently!





Fortunately I have received welcome compliments about both of my blogs. Thank you!


Friday, 21 October 2016

'A new decade,

...
The radio plays the sounds we make,
And everything seems to feel just right, 
coming through your lonely mind...'


A new decade
The above note has been made regarding my accident, however this is also opening track to one of my favourite albums of all time - 'A Northern Soul' by The Verve (over a decade prior, 1995). Ten years since accident, however my recovery has been, and continues to be 'very stepped'. I do not know the exact dates of early-stages, myself, but I do know that I was in a low, minimally-conscious state until mid-April 2007.
A new decade. The past decade has been so difficult, it cannot be compared to anything. Now, a new decade.
I omit including the music video, as there are plenty already planned for this week's post!

Radiohead, my favourite band.  'Amnesiac', probably my second favourite album of the band.  For me, cover versions of tracks, are best when the new act use the old song, re-creating it to have 'their' sound. In the next video Metaphump perform their version of a Radiohead song from 'Amnesiac'. Super.



Radiohead - Pyramid Song (Jazz Cover) by Metaphump

BBC playlist examples
Five videos of songs that were on my BBC Playlist, shared a couple of weeks ago.







Her new album, 'Citizen Of Glass' is out today, I have bought it, and listened to it only once, so far. It seems an amazing collection of songs, all complimenting each other. Evocative, but also calm and soothing. I liked her concert that I attended a couple of years ago, at Somerset House. A good follow up, methinks.



Very folky. Amazing voice. Released earlier this year, her album 'Theyesandeye' is a great addition to my 2016 playlist! I am embarrassed that I do not know too much, other than fallen in love, hearing her track 'All The Birds', on BBC 6music,earlier this week.


2.50 achieved perfectly on time! :)
Only last week, I was panicking. As I had stated earlier in the year, my performance on my gym-bike is to peak three times-a-year. Early April, Paris-Roubaix, succeeded. July, Tour de France, succeeded. Finally, October, World Championships. I had reached 2.48km two weeks ago, 2.49km last Wednesday. 2.49km on Friday. I was ten metre short, after ten minutes. I was so scared i wouldn't make 2.5 for the world championships (sunday) ! However Saturday came. Success! Relief. :)

Result.
A bit of ‘bikeporn’!…
Bianchis are always the most beautiful of all bikes (obviously biased). It's true.



Do you think we live in a fair democracy? Wake up!




I feel like I'm on Shimano XT having been on Deore!
Finally, my wheelchair broke down leaving me in the middle of Kingston. Fortunately, I phoned the correct people, and was rescued by members of KCIL. After a taxi home, and a visit from the good engineeer, my wheelchair was correctly assessed as having a few mechanical problems. It was taken away and 'seen to' by mechanics. Now I have it back! I don't drive, so I can only offer one comparison of 'how it feels.'! I always rode with 'Campagnolo Veloce' on road bikes, so my comparison is made from my mountain bike experience! Oh man, i am pathetic, you probably don't have a clue what language i am talking! Sorry!

Friday, 14 October 2016

a decade

Hello, before i talk about the main issue swirling around my head today, I want to promote the other blog that I have been working on, recently. It is a blog, therefore it is 'alive'. Articles will be added to and amended, as time goes by.




Ten years!
Woah! TEN YEARS.  ten years. Ten years since 'my accident'.


I am alive, but I am not living. I am proud of what I have come through, but no-one, no-one, NO-ONE can attempt to know how i feel. Close family aside, there is no-one. I am here in my mould,  and I’m a million different people from one day to the next (i have to be). I can’t change my mould, no no no. I then reassure myself, I am alive, and it’s a bittersweet symphony, this life. Ups and downs. Downs and ups.  




Listen to the words

The sweeping, orchestral tune is written by Jagger and Richards, Although the immense words of this modern-day blues, are written by Ashcroft. I have chosen the video that I have, to focus your attention on the lyrics, not on his iconic, manic stride down a high-street. Focus on the words, this song can be endlessly deep.


'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
Try to make ends meet
You're a slave to money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
Where all the veins meet yeah,
No change, I can't change
I can't change, I can't change
But I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold
But I'm a million different people
From one day to the next
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no
Well I never pray
But tonight I'm on my knees yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
But the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me now
No change, I can't change
I can't change, I can't change
But I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold
And I'm a million different people
From one day to the next
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no
I can't change
I can't change

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
Try to make ends meet
Try to find some money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
Where all the things meet yeah
You know I can't change, I can't change
I can't change, I can't change
But I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold
And I'm a million different people
From one day to the next
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no,
I can't change
Can't change my body,
No, no, no
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
Been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Ever been down
Have you ever been down?
Have you've ever been down?

Personally, I am now convinced that every problem can be solved by ourselves. If faced by a problem (we all are), we must accept and not panic. The problem is not real, your method of solution is. The 'problem' is merely the measure of our ability at finding and applying this 'solution'. A solution is always just an employment of an alternate method. The more accepting we are of alternatives, the smaller the problem becomes. Apply this alternative to solve the problem.
Relax.

Thank you to everyone. Thank you for reading this blog! Having a following, gives me confidence that people in the ‘real world’ hear my emotional ramblings!
Obviously, my emotions can only be felt so deep on here, but this allows for a broader range to be expressed. I don’t delve deep inside of me, because i actually don’t think like this. Obviously there is hurt deep, deep, deep, but I am content to live above this. It is how I managed to cope initially after accident, I am so proud of myself, in ensuring i acted like such. If I look back and realise what I have had to deal with psychologically, there is no possible comparison. Live for NOW!

I am a designer, so I realise the necessity of planning, and forward-thinking. However I now know that it is foolish for humans to plan their future accurately. It is so much more beneficial to have a 'malleable life'! A life which can easily be formed well, to deal with any requirements that could be conceived, or any possible problems (or as large a range as possible). Live in a flux, ready for anything. Never plan for problems (this may mean unnecessarily experiencing such). Always understand the possibility of problems, don't discount them. Always be comfortable with your own ability (self-awareness of your own history will prove such). Maintain confidence that you will find a solution. 

Friday, 7 October 2016

helloooo


Helloooo
This week's post on 'I Sit & Wonder' is made of a relatively short list of notes. My new blog is taking up much of my 'free time'.
http://independentcoffeeshops.blogspot.co.uk



Music continues to provide me with huge calming, pleasure. Discovering new music that I have not heard before, but ignites a flame inside of me, is the best. A new app from the BBC is a wonderful way of recording 'discoveries', ready for further investigation. I share with you my recent additions to my playlist...
BBC playlist

Song title - Artist
Memphis Soul Stew - King Curtis
(I Can't Get No) Satisfaction - Aretha Franklin
Stratus - Billy Cobham
Golden Green - Agnes Obel
Let's Dance (Radio2 Session January 2016) - Guy Garvey
Sacrilege - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
All I Need - Lou Rhodes
I Know What Boys Like - The Waitresses 
Dark Skies - Emma Pollock

A blog (similarly to all Social Media) is a way of ‘releasing’ to the entire world! I don’t think that I cite anyone in particular, if i am moaning. My words will describe an issue or problem which I feel society as a whole, needs to tackle. I don’t specify personal problems (if i seem to, please don’t take offence). I aim to just present a problem that i may face, and i feel that everyone may be involved in. Everyone can solve anything. People must accept responsibilities.  Everyone, together, can do anything. Every successful action, begins as a concept. If enough people believe that a change can be made, then the only thing halting it is their own laziness.

Ohhhhhhh, how long do i have to wait? I am hurting………………….. …………..but i am used to suffering. I was a cyclist who loved climbing most, I liked suffering! Don’t worry i’m not a masochistic weirdo! Smiling is the answer! A smile. Forget waiting, just live. Let time be lost (I am lucky to have a chance at ‘happiness’, and to have any time at all)

I type this on my mobile phone, as my computer is currently dying/dead :(
So much for the new Apple OS!!!?
Grrrr :(