the truth

The truth. I speak the truth, always. People like to hear the truth. The truth is infinitely powerful. The truth hurts those who are in the wrong. A fact of truth is 100% pure. We can only learn from positive truths, our best possible future paths. We can only predict what we should avoid in future, when considering negative failures/lies/untruths. I was able to begin learning these facts whilst lying in hospital. Ever since I was forced to recognise the power of being 100% pure, honest, and truthful, I have tried to remain such. Recognising the popularity of this blog (where I happily talk the truth, always), provides me with great self-confidence. I write to help those who are looking to build their own self-confidence.

'The truth is no words' (just a song)...

Some things don't change, I stare at her bike!

I was going down the high street, towards a favourite cafe. The sun was shining, life was good. Then I noticed a cyclist on the pavement ahead of me. The biggest shock was that the bike was not being ridden, but pushed. Pushed with attitude by an extreeeeeeemly hot girl. I must admit that I didn't pay much attention, to her. I think she had dark hair and amazing legs, but the bike?! Er, wow! I had never been a big fan of Trek bikes, until now. Outstandingly attractive bike.  The fraudulent name of Lance Armstrong advertising Trek, was washed away for me by this 'supermodel'? She was obeying the law, with class! ;)

I decisively decide that I am indecisive 

Hehehe. Many of you will already know this. My indecisiveness has been complained about, a number of times, by baristas of various cafes. Which coffee? I play by rules. I have set myself rules, as to what, and how much, and when. I do get seriously tempted to break these rules, when I read menus. I also fall back on my brain injury, providing an excuse for indecision. This is a valid excuse, but I really don't like using my injury as an excuse for anything (this just reiterates to me, my disability). Single Espresso. Water.

This morning, halfway between Kingston (right) and Surbiton (left)

A couple of my pictures of Surbiton Station, on sale at the Riverside Cafe

Why did I like climbing when cycling? I could easily recognise that everyone else climbing, was suffering more! Why do I remain content in the rain? I may wear a cheeky smile as I realise that everyone else is miserably suffering whilst I feel ok (wet, but water dries)! I am a b******!

No matter what, hold-music is stress inducing!

The ridiculous thing is that telephone hold-music has usually been chosen to soothe the listener, so it unintentionally increases stress thousand-fold. No win situation.

"Hello"

Oh thank god, a human being!

"I will just put you on hold."

Nooooooooooooooo!! I cannot handle any more of this music.

run run run run awaaaaaaay

My weekday morning wake-up call. 7.15am my mobile phone plays me the intro to my favourite song. 

'Please could you stop the noise, I'm trying to get some rest...'

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****Attention!!!!

Whilst watching the Palace v Arsenal match last week, I witnessed the greatest, useful piece of ball control/wizardry, I have ever seen. I instantly recognised its quality, noting that it must be later found on YouTube.

Mesut Ozil skill v Crystal Palace 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XwdP552tj18

I have never been convinced. I have made the 'executive decision' that I will no longer look on Facebook. Maybe.

I know that I am strong enough to do this, but fear the website's attraction when I am bored!

Nick Frost and Simon Pegg are the funniest comedians, and always make me laugh, no matter how stupid they act.

Hot Fuzz eye stab prank

Findlay - Wild and Unwise

Many videos, because I am too lazy this week. Unfortunately, not everyone accepts truths.

My last video for chosen for a specific reason. I refuse to explain.

Don't hold back... PUSH THE BUTTON

written b4 my birthday

I am stressed out! Hurting, facing the sad facts of reality. I am 31 this week, and i haven’t had a girlfriend since my previous life, when i was 22. I find attractive friends, but can remain only friends. No-one falls in love with someone so dependent on a wheelchair. Correction, actually, yes ‘love as a friend’. No more. Yes, I have tried dating sites. After years of subscription, I have been on ‘dates’. As long as i am trapped by my wheelchair, nothing ever will happen. No girl could ever find a wheelchair physically attractive. Who knows how long i will need something as such? Maybe…

I try and stay positive, but is this just covering the anguish? It works temporarily, but…….

….oh enough..

sorry

fear not, i just typed the above when feeling down. It describes one of my main issues that has troubled me for the past 9 years. I’ve lived through it, and continue to push it aside.

S*** happens. 

It is so important to have confidence in yourself. Owning sufficient self-confidence allows you to attempt what you wish, without it, life can be too hard. 

How to own it? Belief. 

Don’t need the belief of anything, but yourself. Believe in yourself. Act as you feel is the best way, and things that you wish to happen, will start happening. Recognise this, and continue to believe in all that you do. If you have doubt over something, don’t do it. Only do what you believe is right. Once you start achieving goals, use the experiences of achieving them to convince yourself that you can attempt more. Once started, why stop believing? Believe in your own ability. The belief will provide you with confidence. Both things can grow with each other. It is so important to remain in control, and not be arrogant. Realise that you can control this self-confidence, be internally proud of your ability. Only you know the life you have battled through (everyone is different), so you cannot show off to anyone but yourself. Keep proud of yourself, your self-confidence will grow alongside self-belief.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/episode/b06565jk/bbc-proms-2015-season-6-music-prom 

Preliminary band, contemporary dance then Nils Frahm enters about halfway through

Push the button 

One superb gift that I received on my birthday, was a much needed electrical coffee grinder. I did fear that I would lose much of the product semantics, by only needing to switch an electrical switch on and off. But, no, human interaction is maximised. You have to press and hold a switch! Depending how long you hold and grind, results in different grinds. Different methods need different grind quality:

Cafetière - coarse

Drip Filter - medium

Stove-top machine - fine

5turnsinto6!

I am proud. I successfully, lasted six days without coffee. I proved to myself, that I am not addicted. I love coffee, but have proof that I do not need it. 

My close friend and I were going to finish the 5-day ban on my birthday evening, but alcohol was just too appealing, so it was 6 days!

Five-day ban!!

Hello, I type this post in a cafe, as ever, but (and it is a big BUT) I have hot chocolate as I am on a coffee ban. Self-imposed, a good friend and i decided, on Thursday that our next coffee would be had on my birthday, which is FIVE days away! I did warn her that, she may be facing manslaughter charges come the weekend!

Sat on the Sunday facing the river.

Huge psychological distress which way do I choose?

The note above refers to a big decision that I found myself facing on Sunday. I was sat by the riverside considering where to go. Do I choose to continue on, into Kingston to watch the bike race of professional cyclists, armed with my iPhone/camera. Or, do I choose to return to Surbiton to see my very attractive, good friend?

Rubbish pics!!

Sorry Kelly, cycling won my battle, but I was distracted, and failed to take any half decent photos!

I choose the highlights, too late

Sunday was an interesting day. I had also chosen the cycling over watching 'my team' beat Chelsea and win their third trophy after last season's FA Cup(ahem)! I felt so guilty because, not only had I 'failed my team', but once the highlights had finished (including the interview with 'Lord Arsene'), it was then too late to phone my friend! I felt bad, no phonecall, rubbish photographs of the cycling, but thankfully Arsenal put it right! :) 
Thank you Kelly! ;) 

My music supply this week, was heard on 6music, but then Soak also featured on 'the Tiny Desk Concerts'...

http://www.npr.org/event/music/428148845/soak-tiny-desk-concert?autoplay=true

coffee ban for 5 days!!

it hurts, but no problem really. I am only 1 day in!!!