through hell :)

I do not speak Spanish, so although Argentina will win the World Cup, my blog remains English. Me no speak Portuguese so same applies if Brazil win. German is being practiced!

I speak harshly. Being 'the weirdo in a wheelchair' does have its ups and downs. Greeted by total strangers, especially those who are parents often with very patronising, condescending manners, results in joy. I love being a random adult who just smiles at the baby, whilst the parents  are obviously not amused by their very mischievous child, and are going through hell. :)

Life's an ocean

Nineteen years old, this music! I was going to include 'Rather Be' by the same band. The fact is I can read so much into every set of lyrics, written by Mr Ashcroft, but I choose this song again, because it carries my blog well.

I am forever seeing both highs and lows in life. Endlessly, like crests and troughs of waves in an ocean. We must learn how to ride waves, using them as advantageously as we can.

'Do you need any help?'

Hehehe, hmmm. I was returning home the other day, in no rush as I was actually running early for my next meeting. I briefly turned into the driveway at the front of the flat. Then all of a sudden, I hear this offering from an old woman on the pavement, behind. I was slightly surprised, then I was alarmed, and then, endeared to this offering of help by a total stranger. I was confused and hurt. Why me? Does a wheelchair automatically ask for assistance? NO, please, people, you do not know how long I had worked to gain my independence. Hehehe, I type this 'live' in a cafe, again!!!

Hmmm, unfortunately cannibalism exists. But then …  it's just a game!

hmmm, who is your 'player of the tournament'?

I will be told off by my friends in local cafes, for promoting a large chain, but the positive attitude expressed by 'Pret A Manger’ must be copied...

it's not what it used to be!

_{Hello all,}

_{I type, this week, distracted by Italy v Costa Rica on TV in the background. At the moment, England are still in the World Cup, maybe not by the end of typing!}

'Sorry, cheers, thank you’ 

_{Hmmm, my three most commonly used terms. OK, everyone always accuses me of saying ‘sorry’ too much. The chances are that I am not sorry, I say it as an ‘excuse me’ so much. ‘Excuse me’ is a term that I feel a bit too self-righteous. By saying ‘sorry’, I automatically apologise for the situation, and the chances are that the person, now feels in the wrong, uncomfortable that they have forced a disabled wheelchair user, to apologise. I win, but without aggressiveness.}  

_{Kingston Market Place, finished! :)}

_{‘Cheers’ is just an alternate way of saying ‘thank you’. Lazy, but I find myself saying ‘thank you’ so much, it works.}

_{‘Thank you’ keeps everyone in a good, positive mood. Basic manners, seem to surprise many! Now in a wheelchair, many many people seem so surprised to be thanked. I am now in a position where I feel like I owe so much to everyone. My drive for independence, means that I rarely say ‘please’, but I know how much is given, so, thank you.}

_{A strange experience, I admit, but hey strange things happen. Tuesday I was wearing a top over a t-shirt. Both ‘medium’, hehe, but I am no longer a skinny cyclist, they were tight. I needed help from my physiotherapist, earlier in the day, removing them. I had forgotten to ask my PA in the evening. So, I ended up sleeping in my ‘upper’ clothing. Hmmm. They were too tight for me to remove. I needed help, but I was tired. I began to get almightily stressed that I couldn’t manage this alone, but zzzzzzzzzzzz… I awoke in the night, feeling abysmal, that I had ‘failed’. I was lying awake, my angry mind would not let me sleep. I was tired though. I then gathered my mind together sat up, and attempted yet again. I knew that part of the problem was my stress at the situation. I took a deep breath, and calmed myself. With great effort, I managed to do it! Joy! I could now sleep, happy with my own ability at calm myself and successfully tackling the problem.}

_{Hmmm. Italy are losing! Problem. You cannot rely on others to tackle your problem.}

_{My next note, concerns overhearing a conversation by the riverside.}

My earwigging serves me right

New York shopping spree

Shopping list decisions

But if I were to go….

   

_{Two women were discussing a visit to New York, and how much they would spend on a seemingly endless shopping spree. ‘We want go here, then here, then here, then here, etc…’}

_{I realised that if I were to go, I would not be able to plan like this. I don’t know anything about New York’s ‘accessibility’.}

_{My fear applies to anywhere in the world. I only go, if I can. I feel that this doesn’t make the world smaller, but it makes ‘my world’ smaller. No, it basically ruins any joy of surprise. Wheelchair users have to plan.}

_{Dammn. Out we go! Perhaps a mistake, not playing any Gunners, against Uruguay. No excuses!}

 The two strongest leagues in the world, have lost all 4 of their first matches!

_{Hmmm, money destroys. Spain, and England are homes to the strongest football leagues, in the world, with the richest club teams around, yet neither national teams are strong enough to avoid defeat in the world cup. It could be argued that this ‘oil money’ is used to buy foreign players (in both Spain, and England). Club teams are getting bigger and bigger and so ignore ‘homegrown talent’. Homegrown talent goes abroad. The world is getting smaller. The world cup is not what it used to be (say 48 years ago), hmmm.}

 _{a bit of National Pride, before we fly from Brazil! :(}

oh, and the football!...

As I am free today, I have journeyed up to Fleet St/Strand, am enjoying lunch in a cafe, but I know it is Friday, so type, I must. I will publish later, as there are three tunes that I wish to include. I would usually type later on a Friday, but my services will go elsewhere this evening, and...

hmmm

THE WORLD CUP!

oh, and the football...I HAVE put money on a team, and on a golden-boot winner. I put a very small bet on,  then I stopped and was angry for doing so. I believe in fate, and this meant I should calculate my gamble, allowing me to increase my bet! Ask and I will think about telling you, who!

my love

Monday, I was about town and wondering. I knew that I had pre-ordered Jack White's new album on ITunes. A big fan, I however considered, buying the cd (meaning that I would have to wait until Thursday, I think). I was on route to town, on Monday and my IPhone buzzed. My order was to be downloaded on my mobile phone! Hehehe, so I did. The  sad reality for music shops was realised, by myself. Why wait, until Thursday, to pay more for a CD (I have no room for any more). A good album.

A teenage hero of mine. Thank you. RIP

Rik Mayall

It is sunny! Wear a happy grin but always allow room to increase, for a smile. Smile at those who deserve such, but spread happiness to everyone!

a few years old... but...

I  know what I am

I am used to living with this mentality, I am content.

First Aid Kit

Where is My silver lining?

First Aid Kit

Hmmmm. I love this. The words bring it close to my heart.

World cup - talent spotting

hmmm
Seems a good goal, does anyone know who he plays for?...
;)

expect nothing (edited)

This blog post is typed 'semi-live' again. I use this term to explain that I type this post in the outside world(usually a cafe), but I am using and incorporating notes that I have made throughout this past week.

Notes...

I have stopped attempting to flirt with random strangers

It hurts me to realise this

Hehe, hmmm. The above note helps explain dependency on coffee. This can worry me, but I am content, as coffee's positives strongly outweigh its negatives!

I believe in fate, I have no say. 

I condense much of the mentality, on which I rely, into five words.

Don't expect anything. Fate rules.

'You look like you've been sitting in the sun’ 

A comment regularly received, earlier this week. Hmmm, at first, this irritated me, but soon I realised that I was no more red than usual, and the commentator was actually using it to defend themselves. It seems a strange thing to say to someone who is forced to sit in a wheelchair! Ah well. Ignore.

Julie Byrne

An artist that I discovered this week, my collection welcomes it's solo female deep, dark, and depressing sound. It's good, very good.

Ok, one week to go...

I supplied a fixture schedule last week, but hmmm Kick-Off times?...

BST... 

5pm - Costa Rica v England 24th June

8pm - Uruguay v England 19th June

9pm

11pm - England v Italy 14th June

There will be more, hopefully!

I have been forced to live with a very very laid-back attitude. I live for the moment, now. One cannot accurately live a designed life. Shit happens. We must learn to tackle problems face-on.

I return home to add pictures, and publish...

a look towards 'the city', right/eastwards whilst travelling northbound over the Thames

but, westwards...

The Mall

 A Royal Palace

Westminster Abbey