there there

Hello,
As i tuck into a bag of 'Cadbury's Creme Egg Splats' (my very tasty easter present to myself). So, I also realise that my blog missed the festivities completely. Ah well, sorry.

My easter gift to you
http://www.ocado.com/product/66164011
i'm not paying!

Right, i do have plenty of notes on my phone yet again.
I start off on a very cheerful subject. The note "When I die, I want to be cremated sustainably, so my energy lives on."

There there. I have often thought this, even many years before my accident. I will not go into great detail, but i believe that energy stays with us, yet humans are constantly needing and fighting over more.

There there.

I have discovered a beautiful mini-landscaped-area in which a young child was whizzing around the tarmac loop on his bicycle. It was as i avoided his path, I remembered the proper time-trial loop on which i cycled around as a 9 yr old, impersonating Chris Boardman. I am now three times the age, but the circuit will be re-visited. Onto the 'to-do' list, it goes.

The original 'prologue route for myself aged 9. 

Both routes are about 100m in total. 

Below, my newly discovered course used by little cyclists!

It is great to see the love of cycling is still being given birth to, for children everywhere.

I got depressed on wednesday, my note : - I JUST WANT TO BE LIVING A NORMAL LIFE! GRRRR!!!!

I then noted that i needed to remind myself that i am too strong mentally to allow depression get me. I listened to some music (below). All was made better.

 

I was shocked as i was sat in my usual high street cafe, and in came two members/residents with a carer from one of the local 'homes', that I used as a rehabilitation home. 'Rehabilitation is a journey' that i am quite obviously on, but it hurts me to look back and witness those who are not on any journey at all. I know that i am outstandingly lucky to be on such a positive journey forward.

I want to make it clear that I am not 'out of rehab'. Rehabilitation is a lifelong journey, yet i don't have a specific destination i aim for. I just accept that my fate is my fate, directing me to my destiny. Essentially, I could be considered to have reached the big, long, final stage of rehab, LIFE.

My final note argues that 'negativity' = a positive. 'Negativity' is a statment or the realisation that there is a lack of a positive, so is therefore a positive itself.

The lowest anything gets is 0.000000000000000000000infinitely000001.

.... i think........ 

So is the largest anything can get 0.9999999999999999999infinitely? 

oh nevermind