I apologise for the nature of this post.
I attach the song my ipod is playing at the moment, suiting my mood.
The note, i made on my phone, today(very warm and sunny), travelling back alongside the river:
" Am I depressed? It's packed in Kingston. Especially the riverside, couples everywhere, sun, everyone enjoying themselves on a saturday. Reinforces to me, what I haven't got. Have to force myself to remember that I've missed the 'reAl world' for 4 or 5 years.
Doesn't help.
Note taking does ish.
A forced smile hopefully does nOt represent my true feelings.
Grrrr
Sorry."
Hmmm. It feels like I have missed 4/5 years because I have. Life was so much better as a fully able 22year old, and this is how I remember/want life to be. But the world keeps turning, will I ever catch up?
I attach the song my ipod is playing at the moment, suiting my mood.
" Am I depressed? It's packed in Kingston. Especially the riverside, couples everywhere, sun, everyone enjoying themselves on a saturday. Reinforces to me, what I haven't got. Have to force myself to remember that I've missed the 'reAl world' for 4 or 5 years.
Doesn't help.
Note taking does ish.
A forced smile hopefully does nOt represent my true feelings.
Grrrr
Sorry."
Hmmm. It feels like I have missed 4/5 years because I have. Life was so much better as a fully able 22year old, and this is how I remember/want life to be. But the world keeps turning, will I ever catch up?
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