Sometimes I feel so down, but then I am very aware that I cannot continue falling down, down, down. I realise that at as a 21 year old, this is not how i wanted to be, I was very focused on three things, design, my girlfriend, and cycling. But then someone hit my 'POWER ON/OFF' button, and I had to restart from 'DOS mode'. I am forever salvaging things stored on my 'HARD DRIVE'... But I am a human, with emotive feelings, not an inanimate computer!
I used so much energy to power through my rehabilitation homes.
Currently I am 'running on empty'. I am partly hurting because I need those three elements which powered me at 21. 'Cycling' was obviously lost, but elements remain. I have my gym bike, which aids my fitness, and keeps me focussed on myself, my fitness, and my abilty! I remain a fan of the professional sport (although, admittedly, 'professional road-racing', I am unsure about my feelings towards the ‘globalisation’ of this previously ‘euro-centric sport’). 'Design' similar. My love of certain iconic ‘design histories’, remains, as well as my graphic design knowledge and skills. I am very fortunate to use my skills to aid good causes, that I see fit for help. My work is used, and does seem to be valued!
Two out of three elements!
:)
Last week, i foresaw this number reached, implying that this blog attains an average of 7000 page views per year.
42k people do read my words!
I force no-one to do so, but thank you for choosing to read!
The day before winter solstice, is the birthday of this blog. The following cumulative totals of page views, have been achieved. Born in 2010, the first year's quantity, was calculated in October 2011. This sixth, past year, has shown steepest gradient/increase in views. :)
The steepness of the line-graph above, suggests how popular the blog has been, each year (1=2011).
Cumulative totals...
2011 - 3195
2012 - 9020
2013 - 16, 483
2014 - 23,454
2015 - 30897
2016 - 42,089
I spend much of my free time working on my new blog
Both, creating, developing it, and running it provides me much joy (hopefully, you can tell)! As a keen coffee lover, I feel like I recognise the severe need of small, independent, coffee shops who sell, very special, supreme, often unique, versions of what big, high street brands are fooling joe-public with.
the best.
I have reviewed my music highlights of the year. Only entire albums deserve such full respect, but discovery of 'A Carnage/' EP, seems very very special!
2016 music highlights...
Radiohead - A Moon Shaped Pool - Burn The Witch
Unsurprisingly, Radiohead supply me with one of the best. The album is so forward-thinking, and progressive, but full of tunes that hold your ear.
Two more artists (3 people)
Lily and Madeleine - Keep It Together
To Bear Sir (I await album, but 'A Carnage/' EP is incredible) www.amusicalpriority.co.uk/introducing/reviews/ToBearSir.html
My favourite album of the year...
Daughter - ’Not to Disappear’ - ('Numbers', favourite track, opens this blog post)
... official video link - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z-fD3PIRSO8
I cannot live completely, unlike everyone else.
I feel lost.
No-one knows.
Alone with everybody.
The more help one needs, the greater one’s self-recognition of disability. Therefore, I have strived to be as independent as i can be. I cannot bear living in care. I live away from care, but…
I have succeeded so far, but I am left floating on the edge of reality. I fit nowhere.
I live my life, maintaining self-pride, which drives me along. I hurt, but I am used to this, and my pride overpowers such weaknesses.
Be proud. Self-pride can battle you through anything!
Never allow for self-doubt. Always let your instinct lead you correctly.
Merry Christmas
:)
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