I start with a positive, this week. Rain. It is July and yet it seems to be raining every day. Crazy, but life is full of surprises, the weather should not surprise us. As i am used to, and fairly confident of my ability, in twisting a negative fact of everyday life, into a positive. And so, whilst there are obvious negative issues of rain, I twist it round, realising that it makes me feel positive. After lying in a coma, then following years of rehabilitation (a sheltered lifestyle), rain makes me feel alive. I obviously prefer bright sunshine (inducing smiles), but rainfall reminds me how good it is to be in sun....? Confused? I maybe muddle things up here, but i think that you should get what i mean.
I get surprised, when totally random (usually elderly) people, check on me. Whilst essentially there should be no harm intended, it does often feel that i am being placed at the bottom of society, because of my disability. I have got to remember that most people see a wheelchair, think the worst, then assume that i am mentally disabled to. I had one woman jump ahead of me in the queue at a cafe, look at me as if i was a simple, baby child, "Hello, are you ok?"
I acted politely in response, necked my espresso, and was gone. GGGRRRR. I HATE BEING LOOKED DOWN UPON AS INFERIOR, JUST BECAUSE I AM IN A WHEELCHAIR AT THE MOMENT!
I have learnt that it is so much better, to let fate happen, and not attempt to dictate it. We always want something better. If we step back and accept fate and what life throws at us, it is so much more satisfying than wanting more or an improvement of whatever.
Hmmm, that hasn't come out right. I am not telling people to give up striving for more, because that is what everyone does all the time. That's life. However, we must not let any aim dominate us completely.
I am typing this on my blog, so i must stick by it. From now on, I plan to cut down alcohol intake. I sound like an alcoholic, and i am not. I just know how hard i have/still am worked in rehabilitation, from
brain injury. I cannot afford to lose more brain cells this way! There is no way that i am banning myself completely!
I get surprised, when totally random (usually elderly) people, check on me. Whilst essentially there should be no harm intended, it does often feel that i am being placed at the bottom of society, because of my disability. I have got to remember that most people see a wheelchair, think the worst, then assume that i am mentally disabled to. I had one woman jump ahead of me in the queue at a cafe, look at me as if i was a simple, baby child, "Hello, are you ok?"
I acted politely in response, necked my espresso, and was gone. GGGRRRR. I HATE BEING LOOKED DOWN UPON AS INFERIOR, JUST BECAUSE I AM IN A WHEELCHAIR AT THE MOMENT!
I have learnt that it is so much better, to let fate happen, and not attempt to dictate it. We always want something better. If we step back and accept fate and what life throws at us, it is so much more satisfying than wanting more or an improvement of whatever.
Hmmm, that hasn't come out right. I am not telling people to give up striving for more, because that is what everyone does all the time. That's life. However, we must not let any aim dominate us completely.
I am typing this on my blog, so i must stick by it. From now on, I plan to cut down alcohol intake. I sound like an alcoholic, and i am not. I just know how hard i have/still am worked in rehabilitation, from
brain injury. I cannot afford to lose more brain cells this way! There is no way that i am banning myself completely!
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