... Life After Traumatic Acquired Brain Injury...
patrick.goodacre@yahoo.co.uk
Welcome to my blog. It varies how regular I write posts here. I sustained a 'Traumatic Acquired Brain Injury', and a six month coma from a 'road traffic accident' whilst cycling, in October 2006. I spent the following 4 years (22-26yrs old), in a combination of hospitals and rehabilitation homes. Now, I have been living independently in Surbiton, England since October 2010. This blog begun life in December 2010, as i realised that there are many people worldwide that i want to share experiences with. I know that, as a wheelchair user, I am obviously not as mobile as i wish, so, use the internet to connect to you. I enjoy letting my thoughts represent through type. I type honestly. As numerous readers, as well as email recipients, will understand, I find typing to be very therapeutic. Thank you :)
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I open with a TEEEEEWNN! Jack White provides
such anticipation ahead of releasing his second album, by offering this rockin’
instrumental. Perfection? Thank you Jack.
Myintial note, this week is a cryptic reminder for me to rant.
Nike Air
I refuse to name, personally, but instead I
complain about the store. Waitrose in Surbiton, is an amazing supermarket, and
I continue to use. However, I was left exhasperated, earlier in the week. I was
waiting to access the ‘disabled/baby changing toilet’. I was outside, accepting
the fact, but made myself convinced that the only ‘wheelchair accessible loo’
was being wrongly used, by an able-bodied customer (as this is regularly the
case). Wrong, but I accept. 5 minutes, I’m still waiting. Hmmmpf! I tap on the
door, no response. No sound. I return to my ‘waiting spot’… The door opens!
Hooo ray! To my utter astonishment, not only is the man able-bodied, without
accompanying a baby, he is wearing a Waitrose uniform!! A member of staff!
I am in no rush, but sheer disbelief.
Although I see no baby, I ask him ‘Where’s the
baby?’ He looks at me, puzzled. I read to him the sign, explaining those who
may use the loo. I look in despair at his uniform,and point my eyes to the ‘Waitrose’ sign, in desdain. He
tries to tell me that he used it because ‘the other one was busy’. Hmmm, ok.
Wrong, but ok, but WRONG!!!
Grrrrr. Wonderful facts of wheelchair life!
OK, I ensure that this blog is positive, so I
want to share giving my congratulations to Sir Bradley Wiggins.A 9th placed finish, ahead
of Tom Boonen, at Paris-Roubaix, is an amazing result. I consider myself quite
a big cycling fan, but I cannot remember any Tour de France winners, also with
such a good Paris-Roubaix palmares. I am 29, born 1984, so forgive me if I have
missed anyone?...
I admit that I am a coffee addict, so watched much
of the race courtesy of Eurosport, on my phone, outside a café, last Sunday, in
the sun!
Pics, I managed to capture, include Boonen
attacking (with about 60km to go), and above, Mathieu Ladagnous, displaying my
favourite kit, that of Francaise Des Jeux.
More music. Both, female acts, but very
different.
Pins, I first heard Radio6Music, album out
now.
Thursday, I visited central London again. I
love my iPhone. I take it everywhere and am constantly using it as a camera!
When sunny, and art-deco architecture is viewable, I snap away, at joy.
I started off at Surbiton, obviously!
I turn around, and spot Bank by the roundabout!
I am stunned that I have never really looked at this before. To be
investigated.
I get to London, knowing that I wish to head
for Fleet Street. On the way however, I stop off at Somerset House (below). The
shot below is taken just before two girls arrive and take their own photos of
the same shot. However they are shooting each other (fair enough). They are
both standing off-centre!
I cannot believe it. I call out, telling them
that are committing a crime.
A ‘crucifixion’, is what I call it! I explain
why, and offer to take a photo of/for them both.
There is even a flagpole pointing towards where
you stand! Tut tut.
Art Deco classic, the Telegraph building, Fleet
Street.
I finish, by rambling about coffee. My note,
double shot is cheating?
Whilst coffee is amazing, beautiful, and I love
it, it must have a negative side. Too much of anything is bad. I know this, and
readily accept that ‘too much coffee’ is bad. A double-shot coffee, tastes
absolutely perfect, but there is no wonder at this, it’s twice as powerful! Twice
as ‘positive’, must mean twice as ‘negative’.
It is like EPO (erythopoetin), for professional
cyclists. By having one shot of coffee, it is the fair standard amount. But now
that there are cafes wanting to increase their sales, they provide double
shots, to the innocent, unknowing customer. They do taste amazing, but this is
not fair. They are not playing fair competition!
Like EPO, when one ‘races at a higher level’,
everyone has too. Is society prepared to make the jump, to having stronger
coffees?
This is another post typed early (Thursday), outside 'live'. I am sat outside, by the river in the sunshine. Coffee does not accompany, I am not in heaven yet!
I am noticing a problem. it is too bright and I cannot see what I type, so 'apologies'! By living so close to the equator, I should be more used to this problem! I joke.
Ok, serious now. I awoke the other night startled by what I thought I was remembering.
I remember kicking my bike out of the way!
I awoke, and then immediately reached for my phone to notify this unique recall. Truthfully, I don't know how real it was, but when I contemplate the issue, it seems quite possible that it was in fact, so real.
Seven and a half years ago...
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As last weekend Spartacus (Cancellara) won Der Ronde (Tour of Flanders), he has got to be a favourite to conquer The Hell of the North (Paris-Roubaix), on Sunday. Unusually, the race is also being targeted by Sir Bradley Wiggins. So, I know who I'm cheering for... Hmmm, the knight will need his shining armour as he battles through a cobbled hell.
C'MON BRAD!!!
Now, it is Friday afternoon, and I finish typing.
Every now and then, I stop, and the truth hits
me hard in the face. It hurts me, but it startles me when, I begin to think
where I was and the things that I have passed through in the past seven years.
Crazy.
There is no way anyone would have predicted accurately,
anything. Please learn, and accept that nothing, nothing, NOTHING, is certain
for anybody.
Life is full of waves, rising to crests, but
for crests to exist, there must be falls to troughs. I realize that I regularly seem to
create symbolic language relating life, to cycling through mountains, but no.
Everyone’s fate is much more free flowing, deep, with endless waves of crests
and troughs. Whilst we all must focus on positives, riding the waves, beware, it
can be a slippery, slidy rope down.
We have to live life for the moment 'now'. I
wanted to plan too much. It was difficult, but I knew that there was a distant
purpose to all of my actions.
Now I understand that we cannot 'design'
everything. Things happen. We do not control everything. We can experience
everything, but cannot have 100% control of what we experience. We must,
however, learn how to attain the best results of our experiences. There are
positives and negatives of everything in life. Although we must recognise both
sides, it is to our advantage if we focus on positives.
My week’s first note, introduces the post,
‘above’. It may be viewed as very ‘self-absorbed’, by myself, but hey did you
check the name of the blog?
It can be argued that I am very superstitious,
and this is very true. I believe that everything can be viewed differently,
always. There are constants though.
For example, hehe, black cats. I was travelling
to work on Wednesday morning, when…
…Black cat left to right, sees me, halts and
turns to walk away.
I was left astounded, pondering what this could
mean. The black cat did not cross my path in any particular direction, it
actually made a conscious decision against doing such! I was flummoxed.
Accessibility. Hmm, hehe. I was learning
earlier this week, whilst essentially ‘teaching’. I was teaching a French staff
member at one of ‘my’ cafes, how to position the access ramp. They had it fine
but, my missing French term, was for ‘upside-down’. I told them in English, but
was then taught to usethe term ‘del’autre
source’. So there, ‘de l’autre sorce’ means ‘upside down’!
Maintaining the theme, I like to drink an
espresso + water, instead of a black coffee, or ‘Americano’.
A cappuccino how it is supposed to look:
Although many of us enjoy trying to design our
lives, we must not.
Life just happens. Don't try and design your
fate.
My penultimate note of the week, is not an
instruction, more, a bit of advice.
Preemptive politeness works!
I spend my current life in a wheelchair, and I
feel comfortable with often using my tactic of ‘pre-emptive politeness’ works
well. If you start off, by setting a good mood between yourself and another
person, they will automatically feel under pressure to be nice and helpful in
return (mwahahaha!). I do realize that I am very fortunate in being able to
negotiate issues in doing such, but this is such an obvious fact of life, you
are seriously missing out, if you cannot do such.
I have been cycling on my gym-bike a lot
recently, noticing a slight improvement every time. I feel, however that I may
have reached a ‘limit’, or ‘peak’. I cycle for 20min periods, varying total
distances reached by hundreds of metres, most days. I had found that the most
effective accompanying sounds are that of Erick Morrillo. Anyway, I have ‘peaked’.
I try to beat my current record, missing out by ten metres! Twenty minutes of
cycling, to miss out by such a small margin, shows me that I am at my max!
A couple of pics from last week's trip on the Southbank...