Friday 22 July 2016

gotta be done


Sculpture at The Serpentine Gallery, Hyde Park.

Obviously this is a very introspective blog. I am clearly typing now, mainly using it as therapy for myself. I am sorry, therefore, you will find me moaning about issues that i face. It is perhaps not ‘positive’ enough for you all. If you want my positive outlook, start reading from the beginning! 

The law that i made last week, didn't last very long!
The blog was added to on Friday, my 'law' was broken, in https://www.facebook.com/caffeamicisurbiton, the following day!
;)
I will continue to act how I see fit! If I want to give someone my praise, I will. 
It is an advantage that I have, I HAVE to use it wisely. 
I am told it is a good 'plus'. Girls always seem pleasantly surprised by receiving such compliments.
"It is much better than yelling out of a car."
Hehehe...

I have an aching inside of me. In only a few months time, it will have been a decade since my accident. I have battled so far through my rehabilitation process, mentally strong. I have known that physical recovery is a lifelong task. It is a challenge but I have always been determined. Determination and pure self-belief were skills enhanced as a cyclist. I am not currently financially employed. This does annoy me, but I remain proud of what jobs I do voluntarily. I don’t feel totally confident, being able to work at some locations required, in a full-time, 9-5 job. I do what i can, confident in the quality of work that i produce. Third, massive hole, girls. This is what is hurting me the most. I do not hide from this sad fact. I have not been with a partner in almost ten years. I have not been kissed by anyone, for a tenth-of-a-century (family maybe, early on, minimally conscious, i don’t know)! 
If talking about this concept to anyone, I explain that this is the reason why it will be so good if it ever happens again. I cannot wait forever, so 'if'. Maybe I have no choice. How long is forever?
Sorry to bring the mood down! Please have no fear. Shit happens.

I have extremely high standards. I want the best. I know this and I am incredibly proud. My mind cannot  accept anything else. I know who I am, and I am still waiting, but lets face it, i know how to do that!

The closely approaching prospect of Donald Trump becoming the most powerful man in the world, dangerously propped by a willing British witch (MAYbe), is utterly terrifying for all global inhabitants. The success of the Conservatives, and UKIP, is sooooo depressing for me. Caroline Lucas' plea for a fair, 'Proportional Representation' electoral system, was totally squashed by Parliament, signifying that the UK could be locked under the rule of just two political parties forever.
It can be argued that both Boris Johnson and Donald Trump, are very similar. Both target their nation's patriots, citing immigration as a reason to fear a multi-cultural society. Both politicians act foolishly, to engage EVERYONE. They then use fear of the new/unknown, to gain votes for themselves. Once they have gained power they will seriously diminish (or reverse) our evolution of multi-cultural societies. Wars will be fought.
Wars are never won, only lost by everyone.





Summer!
Temperatures



The above screenshot proves to me that we have had Summer-temperatures, this year!
peaches
My favourite fruit has been available in the Kingston Market, recently.
I love peaches.

'Life is crazy!'

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